The chemicals in our brains that are activated by that movie scene or that music video, will never be quite as excited when the sex of an almost stranger, or even a significant other doesn’t measure up to our overblown expectations.
It’s each those who think they understand sex from what they’ve seen on TV and are disappointed by the real thing.Īs long as the media can keep their picture of sex and intimacy as more desirable and yet unattainable, they’ll never be able to make enough of their lies to satisfy the demand. It’s people who will watch a show and hope that each episode will go a little further than the last. It’s people who will watch a movie rated PG-13 or R for nudity and sex, even when they know that they struggle with the thoughts it puts in their heads. It's no longer just someone who pays a couple bucks for a video on the internet. It’s no longer just someone who has to clear their browser history after a session. The definition of porn is changing, and along with it, the definition of a porn addict. Maybe I have so many issues because you got to pick and choose when to be a father so I had to decide I didn't need a dad. Maybe I have so many issues because you belittle the women who raised three of her children and still have the audacity to tell her to do better.
Maybe I have so many issues because you wanted me to leave her the way you did like she hasn't been through enough already. Maybe I have so many issues because you thought me loving my mother was me choosing sides, and how did you expect a child to make those types of decisions. Maybe I have so many issues because you were forcing me to be apart of a family that didn't claim me as their own, and how am I supposed to learn how to love myself when the people around me didn't? Maybe I have so many issues because you thought to pay child support made you father of the year because you thought to buy gifts made you a present father. Making your negative into positive like I had to do with most things. You didn't really use those words, but that's what I decided to take out of it. Maybe it's because you said I would end up like my mother, you said that I would end up strong and independent but you meant it as an insult.